Okay so I just wanted to write a recap of how my week went. It was better than last week, but I am still struggling with waking up in the morning. I have gotten better at it. Mentally, I think that is where the battle has been. I know that God is really doing a work in my life through running. He is changing thoughts that I have struggled with my whole life, one of which is finishing, following through, attaining a goal. I have always had issues with that, and most of the time, I would feel defeated, and give up. In High school, when I was in high school, I ran cross country and LOVED it, I had finally found some thing that I was good at, my parents were not really the type to go to races, which really made me feel bad, but later my father mentioned that he wanted me to do things for myself and not for others. Anyways, I had talent, but lacked self confidence so when a freshman came in and seemed to be better than me, I gave up my junior year. Another example was finishing high school, I entered my senior year with only 3 credits to finish, I decided to finish school early, move in with a friend, got our own apartment, only to miss too many days and ended up having to finish in the summer. I didn't complete college, because I got pregnant with my first daughter, not married yet and since I was going to a Christian college, I assumed I wouldn't be able to finish. (which was not the case, they would have let me finish. It's like I have a fear of finishing. I haven't quite figured it out, but I do recognize it in my life as a cycle. I thank God that He reveals these things to me and he is challenging me to break the cycle. So when I mark out another week, there is this joy in my heart that overwhelms me.
This week, I was faced with an injury scare, I was faced with sleepless nights, I was faced with everyday challenges as a mother and wife. I had some times in my day where I was attacked by the loneliness as a stay at home mom. These are things that I go through every week. I try every day to focus on positive thoughts, focus on the joy my daughters bring me on a daily basis.
Here is what I had to do this last week:
Day1 30 min Tempo Run
Day 2 3 mile run
Day 3- 3 mile run
Day 4- 3 mile race pace
Day 5- 6 mile run
My first run was on Tuesday, I decided I would do an easy warmup for 10 minutes, then run as hard as I could for 10 mins, then cool down for 10 mins. I was really surprised to see my fast pace in the middle was 8:01/mi. for 1.26 miles , that really encouraged me to know that I am getting faster!! :) That was definitely a highlight of my week. On wednesday I run with a group called back on my feet, and I am always looking foward to that run!! :) Thurday was when I was feeling my foot hurt so I went on ahead and skipped my workout with plans to combine 2- 3 mile runs on Saturday. Running with the awesome marathoner that I met on Saturday was a definite highlight as well, he really did motivate me. I was able to run 6 miles in less than 60 minutes with his coaching!! My last run for the week was a very easy paced 6 mile run I did on sunday in my neighborhood, I use that last long run to relax and reflect on my week, listen to music and just get lost in my thoughts, which is nice every now and then.
The best memory this week was getting home from a run and seeing my daughter Gracie looking out the window. I love that she was so excited to see me, and right away she knew what I had been doing. Later on that day she said, "Mommy when I get older I wanna run a marathon like you." It was so cute how she said it because marathon sounded like it would sound coming from a 3 year old, but it brought tears to my eyes, she may not really know what she meant, but it touched my heart that she sees mommy running, she sees mommy working hard, and she will see mommy run a marathon!! :)